commitment

We are doing the Purpose Driven Life Book by Rick Warren in our home group.
Last night was a great lesson in chapter 14 (When God Seems Distant)
And one of the questions was have you ever felt like God was distant and if so how did you respond?
This question stirred something so with in me so deep. Because I have been in a place where I felt like God was very distant. I didn’t understand what was going on and why,
I felt like I was on a road that was pitch dark and if I turned to the left or the right I couldn’t see. I didn’t know how this would turn out.

But I was so committed to God, to Jesus I won’t turn back, I can’t go back!!
NO matter what it takes God I love you so much that I will never let go.
You mean so much to me I can’t ever imagine my life without you.
You are my everything Jesus, you saved me from Hell itself I will worship you ALWAYS!

You are the blood that runs through my vein
You are the one who makes my heart beat
You are the one who gave me sight
You gave me the ability to breath
And every breath that I take is yours
All that I am, All that I’m not I’M YOURS LORD!!!!
I will worship you in the storm
I will praise you in that dark place
All that is within me I will bless your Holy Name!

You first loved me when I didn’t even acknowledge you as God.
The most I can do is Love you,
I’ll give you everything. (My life)

Kirk Franklin Song: The Appeal
You are my soul
It’s your love that keeps me strong
You are my light
In the darkness of my night
I’m lost without you
Broken without you
Oh how I need you
You make life worth living
Your grace always keeps giving
I’m lost without you
I’m broken without you
Oh how I need you
Life begins and life will end with you

This states it all!
So I ask you have you ever felt like God was distant. What was your response?

SELF CONFIDENCE

Decisions that affect your self confidence

· We must make the DECISION to wake up and invite change into our lives.

· I can speak from my experience and say that when my self-esteem was definitely low, it affected the way I used money, my relationships, and my career choices. It determined how I dressed, communicated and what I saw when I looked in the mirror. Even though I look the same now as I did then, back during that time I thought of myself as ugly.

· As I became more aware that the ‘negative’ stories that I created or had inherited were simply not the Truth, my life shifted and continues to shift to a place that I believe is more reflective of my rightful heritage as a Child of God.

1. Decide to accept God’s Plan for you (Jer 29:11)

2. Don’t wait for someone to take care of you, or compliment you

3. Evaluate the things in your life that add value to you

4. Let go of the things that don’t. ( don’t settle for less than the best)

5. You deserve God’s best

6. Decide to invest in yourself

7. Make personal goals

8. Ask your self questions

9. Always be open minded to new things

I wrote the last blog to inform people about the effects of abuse.

I also believe that God can heal, and set us free from all areas of our lives rather that is abuse, divorce, anger etc. Whatever the issue is God is able to deliver and heal us his children.

Do not allow the enemy tell you that your past or present circumstances determine your outcome that is a lie from the enemy.

You can be set free, and your children will not have to experience what you did.

As a child of the king we have authority over the enemy every scheme,plan or attack.

He is already defeated so don't allow him to hinder you from the plan and purpose God has for your life.

Walk Worthy of the calling!!!!!!!

Adult Survivors of Sexual Abuse: some things we would like you to understand

1. We grew up feeling very isolated and vulnerable, a feeling that continues into our adult lives.

2. Our early development has been interrupted by abuse, which either holds us back or pushes us ahead developmentally.

3. Sexual abuse has influenced all parts of our lives. Not dealing with it is like ignoring an open wound. Our communication style, our self-confidence, and our trust levels are affected.

4. Putting thoughts and feelings related to our abuse "on the back burner" does not make them go away. The only way out is to go through these emotions and process them.

5. Our interest in sexual activity will usually decline while we are dealing with this early trauma. This is because: •we are working on separating the past from the present. •pleasure and pain can sometimes be experienced simultaneously. •it is important for us to be in control, since control is what we lacked as children. •Sometimes we need a lot of space. Pressuring us to have sex will only increase our tension.

6. We often experience physical discomforts, pains, and disorders that are related to our emotions.

7. We often appear to be extremely strong while we are falling apart inside.

8. There is nothing wrong with us as survivors -- something wrong was DONE to us.

9. Sometimes others get impatient with us for not "getting past it" sooner. Remember, we are feeling overwhelmed, and what we need is your patience and support. Right now, it is very important for us to concentrate on the past. We are trying to reorganize our whole outlook on the world; this won't happen overnight.

10. Your support is extremely important to us. Remember; we have been trained to hold things in. We have been trained NOT to tell about the abuse. We did not tell sooner for a variety of reasons: we were fearful about how you would react, what might happen, etc. We have been threatened verbally and/or nonverbally to keep us quiet, and we live with that fear.

11. Feeling sorry for us does not really help because we add your pain to our own.

12. There are many different kinds of people who are offenders. It does not matter that they are charming or attractive or wealthy. Anybody -- from any social class or ethnic background, with any level of education-- may be an offender. Sexual abuse is repetitive, so be aware of offenders with whom you have contact. Do not let them continue the cycle of abuse with the next generation of children.

13. We might not want or be able to talk with you about our therapy.

14. We are afraid we might push you away with all our emotional reactions. You can help by: listening, reassuring us that you are not leaving, not pressuring us, touching (WITH PERMISSION) in a nonsexual way.

15. Our therapy does not break up relationships - it sometimes causes them to change as we change. Therapy often brings issues to the surface that were already present.

16. Grieving is a part of our healing process as we say goodbye to parts of ourselves. Taken from
me.